Thursday, April 14, 2005

My enrollee caught my act

My act is "I don't need you". I enrolled the whole group of guys I
work with at lunch today. AS SOON AS WE GOT BACK TO THE OFFICE FROM
LUNCH, I was sitting at my desk. I asked the guy next to me a
question and he said "I don't know". The guy on the other side of
the partition yelled the answer and I ignored him (working very hard
on trying to figure it out myself). He stood up and said "Are you
ignoring me because you don't need me?". I was blown away. This is
the power of enrollment for me. My group of enrollees can catch my
act. They can also remind me that I am the possibility of Fun!
Cheers,
Joe

There's a thing on my face (a poem)

I just woke up and there's a thing on my face.
In order to breathe I have to brace.
It compels me to be and I can't see.
I say to myself, "here's a possiblity".

This thing is a story, it comes from the past.
It makes my neck hurt and moves me to act fast.
It's a complaint and it's not real.
It makes me suffer and makes me tougher.

My thing is a chair I speak into being.
I carry it around so I can see it's style.
Next, I'll create a possiblity...
Hey, I'm free of that thing now.

Saturday, March 26, 2005

Unhittable ball #1 (called my ex-wife)

I called my ex-wife Audrie today.

This was an unhittable ball for me. It's not that I couldn't hit
it. I could hit it if I wanted to. I just didn't want to...

She doesn't blame me and she doesn't hate me.

She and her husband Herve suffered with credit problems because of
the "we transferred our mortgage to my cousin John and he defaulted"
story. For some reason, this didn't seem to affect my credit
report. (opening for me: get a copy of my credit report from the 3
different credit report companies...)

Audrie really likes my mom and really liked my Gram. When I called
her and left a message that I wanted to talk, she had her mom check
the obits and call Beinhaur's Funeral Home because she thought my mom
had died.

She works for TGIF. This is funny...

One of her strong suits is she has a memory like a video recorder.
She told me about the time when I worked 72 hours to get a project
done.

I'm glad I called, and I don't have to carry around a story about her.

It seems every time one of these conversations happens, it opens up
new possibilities for relationships with even more people in addition
to that person. Or it opens up possibilities for new opportunities
for me.

After sharing with her, I began to see all of the good times I had
during the time when I was with her (including fun times that didn't
have anything to do with her). Carrying this thing around all these
years probably had a lot to do with my lack of joy.

Her cousin owns a software company...

The Possibility of Fun (Joe)

What goes up...

Hi Guys,

The act I'm giving up is "I don't need you". I've had it for a long time. So, for a long time, I haven't had big ups and big downs (like Eve). I've had "arms distance" relationships and didn't have to deal with downs. I had a very even temperment. So, I've been "up" all week and now I'm down... This sucks... Does anybody know how to get "up" again?

I need you.

Joe